Sunday, July 11, 2010

End of the first Half of the Year!

It is already six months into the year. I had not made resolutions for this year. The year started on a kind of sombre note and I was not exactly in a mood for resolutions back then. I am not in that mood even today, not that the middle of the year is a popular time for making resolutions. What I just want me to do is make good decisions and spend my time wisely so that at the end of the day I do not end up feeling like I wasted my day doing things that were unnecessary. Believe me, I feel like that many a times.

We come across so many things in the span of a day, what someone said, what someone wrote, and there are a always a few things that stick with you for a while and make you think. I do not have a schedule that keeps me on my toes all the time where I am rushing from one point to another on any given day in my life. I have a fairly busy day, with a few deadlines, that I manage to keep, with time on hand for afterthoughts. For me, afterthoughts are very compelling. I might say something now, but at a later time, a better thought comes to me and I always prefer to have time where I can decide which is the better option.

I also have this habit of working like a horse when people are not looking and then relaxing when they are actually taking notice. The funny thing is even when tons of work is done, people have this annoying habit of making judgments on the basis of what they see. I might have moved the furniture around the whole room single handed and changed the set up for the better. But if I have done it like I usually do, when no one is looking, chances are that the person will think it happened in a snap, even if it took me three hours of sweating it out. When I have to have things ready for meetings, I usually have them going round in my head for quite a while, and then I sit down and put it down on paper in maybe 15 minutes. What people do not see is that the thoughts have been in my head when I am cooking, cleaning, even right before going to bed when my mind seems to be at its creative best. My better half has this ability to look really busy all the time, even if he is going from one room to the next to get something, he hurries to and fro and one feels like something very important is going on. Me, on the other hand, takes longer strides, which takes me the same amount of time to retrieve the thing from the exact same place, but it feels like I am not in a hurry. Okay, before anyone misunderstands, this is not a 'spiritual scratching post' (phrase courtesy- Charles Schulz) for me to complain about my spouse, it is just a place where I put down precious thoughts.

Continuing with my musings, it is just the way you do a certain thing. When I drive and know that my exit is coming up, I make the necessary lane changes well ahead of time so I do not have to rush at the last minute. Well, when I am the navigator, I am expected to stay cool even when the exit is just half a mile away and we still have two lanes to cross before we get there. I wonder if it is a guy thing, because I have heard this from some other friends as well.

What I have written draws a picture of me like I am some meticulous, very orderly person who does things nearly perfectly all the time. I am not like that. I goof up. It takes eons to do things between knowing I have do them and me actually doing them. The nice part is that I am pretty organized and hope to stay that way by making a few mental resolutions and keeping them as I trudge along through the latter part of the year.