Summer Break

The school year is done! Schools are out for summer. By the time the year draws to a close, on one hand, you feel like the year just sped past, and on the other hand, you are so ready for the break. A break from all the routine chores like waking up at early hours of the morning, packing lunches and snacks, getting the kiddo dressed, and fed, and making sure all this is done before the bus is at the door.

Then the driving around for classes begins in the evening, cooking dinner, keeping things ready for the next day, and back to the grind all over again. So the summer break is a nice break from most of these things, except the driving around for classes. That does not feel so bad when the rest of the day has been relatively easy. So, I am not complaining.

Every year, I have a whole list of things I plan to do during summer. I make schedules, chalk out all the stuff to do, and then the laziness starts to set in. I don't end up doing much of what I had in mind. Before I know it, August comes knocking and it is time to start getting the act together to head back to school. A lot of my plans have materialized and I am proud of those achievements, but the others that don't get done as meticulously as I planned them also stare back at me from my schedules. I wonder how this year is going to turn out. As usual, my plans are made, I am excited about the next couple of months.

Baseball

We are done with the baseball season this year. We had our last day party and it had to be moved to a school cafeteria because the final game was a washout. We had major storms pass through on two consecutive days, leaving behind a soggy mess in the fields. The party was good, the pizza, cupcakes and soda were devoured by the young team, and trophies were handed out. The team gifted the coaches autographed bats and balls and pictures were taken. End of season!

Half our team knows a little of what baseball is all about. They know that fielding is about going after the ball and getting a batter out. They know that pitching is an important part of the game and that a 'home run' is a big deal. The other half of the team just knows that you hit the ball with the bat, run to first base, then second, then third and then you romp home.

We have a pitcher for at least the past two years who is an incredible young man from a nearby High School. He has a sibling who has special needs. He comes out there for every game and changes his pitching according to the need of the player. We have a player who has very poor vision, but loves to play. The pitch to him is with loud verbal cues and ones that go close to his bat, another player is a hard hitter, to him the pitch is more like a regular pitch. He calls out to the batter by name and pitches, so the batter feels special and takes an interest in hitting the ball. I truly appreciate the spirit of young people like this who have their head on straight even in their teens.

The coaches do a wonderful job too. They are usually dads who have taken the job of coaching the team and make every effort to get each player to practice catching, throwing and batting well. We have been on the same team for four years now, and have seen the kids grow year after year and watch how far along they have come. It is just amazing to see how some dedicated individuals go out of their way to make these special kids have a good baseball season year after year. Their spirit is truly appreciated!

Half A Year!

Six months! That is half of the year! It is a pretty long time, but sometimes, you feel like you batted an eyelid and that period just flitted by. The last six months are kind of like that. Yes, I felt them pass by, yet it feels like it was all too quick. In no time, it will be a year, and just like that, we will be counting years. Life goes on!

I just keep getting this overpowering feeling every once in a while now, that what happened was forever. There are no second chances. I remember some arguments that I had, and wish I had not had them. I wish I had been more compassionate, more understanding and more available. Then I tell myself to even think about all the good times, when I guess I was all those things.

Today, I read a little poem on somebody's profile, and it touched me in an odd sort of way. It went like this-
                                
                                How far you go in life

                     depends on your being tender with the young, 

                           compassionate with the aged, 

                            sympathetic with the striving, 

                      and tolerant of the weak and strong. 

    Because someday in your life you will have been all of these.

                           - George Washington Carver

I wonder if I did what I was supposed to do when the need was there. I know it is no use crying over spilt milk. I just feel that one cannot let the past go by without it teaching you anything. Thriving to be a better person is a quest for me. There was once a poem about a man in the mirror that had stirred up something like this in me. When I was in school, my dad would get hundreds of cards for Diwali, Christmas and New year. My hobby was to collect them, not all of them, but the nice ones. I had them in categories, the lovely lamp ones, the landscapes, the winter feel, and so on. This card was a very simple one and had this poem inside. It made such an impact on me that I cut it out and put it in my diary. That little thing stayed with me all these years. That poem is here, posted on the internet in a lot of places giving credit to an anonymous poet, but a few places list the poet as Dale Wimbrow who wrote it in 1934.

The man in the glass

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day,
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn’t your father or mother or wife
Whose judgment upon you must pass.
The fellow whose verdict counts most in you life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

You may be like Jack Horner and chisel a plum
And think you’re a wonderful guy.
But the man in the glass says you’re only a bum
If you can’t look him straight in the eye.

He’s the fellow to please-never mind all the rest,
For he’s with you clear to the end.
And you’ve passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years
And get pats on the back as you pass.
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
If you’ve cheated the man in the glass.

This post has gotten very serious, but am in that kind of a mood today. I am not someone who has sayings and thoughts written all over my desk and diaries, but a tiny handful of them mean a lot to me. Finally, none of this means anything if your conscience says things are fine.

This is to the future, where I hopefully will make good choices, and will be able to face the man in the glass.

Good people!

It was the 15th of August a few years ago. My son was about 8 years old. His favorite toy was the two wheeled scooter with which you can whiz past people in no time. It was a hot afternoon, and people were out in their front yards washing cars, mowing lawns, and carrying out weekend tasks. Children were playing. I had just washed my hair. Junior wanted to ride his scooter outside. I asked dad to keep an eye, dad said he needed a nap after mowing the lawn. So I mumbled under my breath and walked out on the driveway to look for kiddo who was probably at the end of the street taking a turn.

Nope, I did not see him. I went further down into the street, and yet no sign of him. I ran to the end of the street and asked my friend there if he had seen the little guy. He said yes, he was here riding the scooter! A chill ran down my spine. Where was he? I ran down to the cul-de-sac, from where a hike and bike trail goes around the whole subdivision and looked around, no sign of him at all. I ran back home, and told my husband. He was recovering from a knee surgery, and was not the best runner at that point of time. I ran the other way down the main road, into the adjacent street........... but he was nowhere to be seen! Tears were streaming down my face now, and I decided to put on something on my feet, it was not a good idea running all over bare foot.

Meanwhile, the people in my street realized what had happened. My husband, and four other neighbors set out on bikes to scour the bike trails. There was a brother and sister pair who lived on our street, and they both set out on their bikes, walkie talkie in hand, with the other handset with their mom. Everyone was really worried because everyone knew my son was almost non verbal, and were not sure if he knew how to go around the place.

That was one thing I was not worried about, because, in spite of very limited language, he is always very good with directions. Autistic people are like that. They have some strong features. I ran into other streets where other people asked me what he was wearing and started looking. Soon there were a few cars driving slowly all over the place. Twenty minutes passed, I was beside myself with worry. I picked up the phone and called 911. The cop was at the door in no time. He asked me the details and drove away.

I was running helter-skelter again trying to look for my baby. Then one person asked me if he could swim. My heart sank. There were lakes on the trails, but he always kept away from the banks.  The worst thoughts go through your mind at such times! What if someone ran him over? What if someone just picked him up and drove away?
Just then, the mom with the walkie talkie ran up to me and said, "my kids called, they found him at .........."! I looked at her in disbelief and ran to get the car keys, I was so relieved that I could not figure out where the cross street was! I got there in two minutes and hugged him, and the two kids who found him, they were both just a couple of years older than my son. I saw the cop drive by, I told him I had found my boy. I also saw several cars take a u-turn and head back home.

So many people I did not even know were looking for my son. I thanked as many of them as I could. They all said the same thing, 'would you have not looked if my child was missing?' It was a good lesson that day, about how good people exist everywhere, and how they are out helping you even you have not asked them to. I will never forget that Indian Independence day party we had that night, where people asked me if I had a fight and had cried a lot. My story was one big conversation piece that evening!

March Madness

March Madness is always used with respect to basketball. However, there is a certain madness in my backyard too, at this time of the year. Things are all waking up after winter and then there is a sudden liveliness all over. Birds are scurrying to find places to build nests. The poor things have fewer and fewer places to nest now, thanks to us Humans!

Last year, as I went to pull the hose from the side of the house, I saw something! At a very precarious spot, I spotted this nest. It was on this wooden ledge between the two pickets. This area is in between the two homes, and when it gets windy, the little strip acts like a connection from the back to the front, and is just not the place for a bird's nest. Sure enough, in a couple of weeks, as I went to check, I found broken eggshells on the grass below. It was so poignant to see the bird sitting around for a few days.

This season started out after a long and dragged out winter. One morning when I stepped out into the backyard, I felt some movement overhead. I looked up and realized that we were not the only ones inhabiting the home, we had a tenant. Sitting in the rain drain, was this sweet looking thing. I was once again very worried for her. Rain drain??? Is that safe? A heavy shower could just wash her abode away.

Then I looked again, she had used her little brain this time. Look at the spot she chose! It is before the point where the pipe bringing water from the roof connects to the drain that carries it away. She was relatively safe.

 In the beginning she was not happy when we stepped into the backyard or sat out on the patio. She would get restless and stare at me in the eye. I took a few pictures of her. We would sit out there on the patio. She soon realized that she was safe. We all shared the space together. The neighbors had dogs, and she probably did not like all that barking. Here it was quieter.

I hope to hear little chirps in a few days. I also hope we can step out there without being pecked at or being scolded for going out while the babies were napping! I look forward to some interesting times ahead!

Why are we here?

As I logged on to facebook the other day, I saw that a close friend had posted a cosmic kind of a question on her wall. She wanted to have an insight into what we are doing on the face of this earth! Why are we here, she mused, what is the purpose of our being on this Earth? Soon, she had a flurry of replies telling her to have her morning coffee and do something meaningful so she would not have such bizarre thoughts. She was mad because that was not what she wanted to hear.

What was even more bizarre is that I have had this question in my head from as early as fifth grade. I would ask my mom, why are we here? What is left if this earth and we, were to cease to exist? My mother would tell me to go out and play. She had said to me that I was scared ever since it dawned on me that we were ON the sphere that we call Earth and NOT cocooned inside of it as I had earlier imagined. Ever since then I used to ask her that if gravity were to suddenly fail for some reason, where would we fall off and land? Finally one day, someone said we would all float into space. That is when I began to think why we were here in the first place!

Life changes fast. I definitely think that after I got to eighth grade, time began to fly by faster. The year would be done in no time at all, and it would be time for another new year. That pace has only gotten faster and faster. However, life has changed dramatically while time was busy flying. I was watching an old Hindi movie where village life was portrayed. What struck me was how slow the pace of life was! Those people were in no hurry at all! I agree it was just a movie, but life used to be like that, I am told. Nothing HAD to be done right now, like it is now. There were no schedules and calenders reminding us that everyday there was/were some thing(s) to be taken care of. I have heard people say they would not have it any other way, and then the next thing they say is how hectic life has become and that the stress is building up.

My husband asked me if I wanted a phone that would tell me if I had a new email as soon as I received it. I put my foot down and said no! This was how things got complicated. Once I knew there was an email, I would want to read it, which would mess with what I was doing in the first place. Do I really want something that is going to create more chaos than there already is in my life? No way! I do not wish to be ruled by a gadget!

There was a feature in the evening news about a family that moved away from city life, into a home that was secluded, had no TV, and electronic games, and the parents wanted their children to get back to nature. I do not know what they are up to now. The idea had really appealed to me when I watched it though. Now I know that many of you who are reading this will think that these thoughts are those of an idle mind, but come to think of it, at the end of the day, what does one want? Do you want to be at peace with the day that just went by? Or are you going to bed with thoughts of another action packed day with a dozen errands to run and another packed schedule?

I know that each one has a duty to perform, whether it is that of a parent, a child, a student, or a job holder, and we are supposed to be taking care of our responsibilities in the best way possible. That is the purpose, but delve deeper into this and you will know what I mean...

I do not have the answer to it, I am also sending out this cosmic question. What is the purpose of our existence?

Spring is here!

And the cycle of seasons continues! Winter is on its way out and the signs of spring are slowly appearing. An especially harsh winter, in many senses of the word, is finally coming to an end! The yard has taken a beating. The grass, the trees, the shrubs, all cry out for warmer weather and sunshine, and it is almost here. I was out looking at the plants and saw some surprising outcomes after this season.

My Curry plant that I had been given by a friend when it was a tiny sapling about eight inches high, does not look as if it has made it. This was the first winter that I had to keep reminding myself not to run into the yard to bring in the leaves as I cooked, because there were none. It had gotten large, it stood taller than me, and had abundant leaves. I am not sure if it is going to come back to life.

The Asian Jasmine is seventy percent dead, burnt by the frost. The part that is still green has no buds. Usually. at this time of the year, the whole plant takes on a pinkish hue with buds all over. In a few days, there are hundreds of fresh white flowers that are so wonderfully fragrant that people turn heads to look for the source. I had to move it twice before I finally had found this spot for it, right by the front porch, where it did not take a beating from the strong Texas sun in summer. I have had friends drop by for a chat and decided to stand outside and chat instead of sitting indoors, in the lovely fragrant setting.. 

As I walked to examine more damage, I noticed these little things growing out from in between the dead fronds of the Foxtail Asparagus Fern. What a blessing that one survived!

I had two Oleanders that gave abundant flowers all through spring and summer. It appears that they have not made it. I am told to give it time, as they may revive. We pruned the dead branches and allowed for the sun to warm them up and hopefully sprout out some new leaves.

The big palm is alive, but all the leaves are burnt and look a mess. I wonder how much a landscaper will charge to pull down those huge leaves. My Azaleas are looking good, they were the ones I thought will succumb, but there are surprises like that all over the yard. The Roses seem okay, and need to be pruned.

Some not so pretty creatures were out too, looking around with me. Hi there!!!

My maple is bursting with new buds, it is a tree from the temperate region and did not mind the winter that much. Look at that tiny leaf waiting to get out.

That is the story from my yard. Some things make it, some don't. We like the things we love to stick around as long as possible so we can enjoy having them around. We do not always get our wishes. However, life goes on! However harsh the winter, spring is always round the corner brimming with life, freshness and hope!

Spring is here!

And the cycle of seasons continues! Winter is on its way out and the signs of spring are slowly appearing. An especially harsh winter, in many senses of the word, is finally coming to an end! The yard has taken a beating. The grass, the trees, the shrubs, all cry out for warmer weather and sunshine, and it is almost here. I was out looking at the plants and saw some surprising outcomes after this season.

My Curry plant that I had been given by a friend when it was a tiny sapling about eight inches high, does not look as if it has made it. This was the first winter that I had to keep reminding myself not to run into the yard to bring in the leaves as I cooked, because there were none. It had gotten large, it stood taller than me, and had abundant leaves. I am not sure if it is going to come back to life.

The Asian Jasmine is seventy percent dead, burnt by the frost. The part that is still green has no buds. Usually. at this time of the year, the whole plant takes on a pinkish hue with buds all over. In a few days, there are hundreds of fresh white flowers that are so wonderfully fragrant that people turn heads to look for the source. I had to move it twice before I finally had found this spot for it, right by the front porch, where it did not take a beating from the strong Texas sun in summer. I have had friends drop by for a chat and decided to stand outside and chat instead of sitting indoors, in the lovely fragrant setting.. 

As I walked to examine more damage, I noticed these little things growing out from in between the dead fronds of the Foxtail Asparagus Fern. What a blessing that one survived!

I had two Oleanders that gave abundant flowers all through spring and summer. It appears that they have not made it. I am told to give it time, as they may revive. We pruned the dead branches and allowed for the sun to warm them up and hopefully sprout out some new leaves.

The big palm is alive, but all the leaves are burnt and look a mess. I wonder how much a landscaper will charge to pull down those huge leaves. My Azaleas are looking good, they were the ones I thought will succumb, but there are surprises like that all over the yard. The Roses seem okay, and need to be pruned.

Some not so pretty creatures were out too, looking around with me. Hi there!!!

My maple is bursting with new buds, it is a tree from the temperate region and did not mind the winter that much. Look at that tiny leaf waiting to get out.

That is the story from my yard. Some things make it, some don't. We like the things we love to stick around as long as possible so we can enjoy having them around. We do not always get our wishes. However, life goes on! However harsh the winter, spring is always round the corner brimming with life, freshness and hope!

Priceless

A couple of years ago, we were on a visit to California. Los Angeles, to be precise. It was our first visit to that state. One afternoon, we drove to the Santa Monica Pier. It was a weekday and it was not as crowded as it usually is. They have a Carousel there, which was huge.  Our son wanted a ride. There was hardly anyone around and the operator insisted that all of us take a ride. It was fun! We ventured out on the beach later. Beaches are very dear to me and I always find myself feeling very relaxed in the sea breeze. Later, we were planning on a drive along Pacific coast Highway 1 that runs along the coastline and offers an excellent view of the area. 

After a snack at one of the restaurants on the Pier, and spending a good amount of time looking around, we were heading back to the car. That's when I noticed a roller blades rental kiosk. I decided to look into what he had, and to my delight, I saw that along with all the roller blades, he had roller skates too, the old fashioned ones that I loved! I asked him about his charges, which were about $10 an hour, and decided to give it a try.

As I was growing up, my dad had bought me a pair. In no time, I was a pro at maneuvering myself on them all over the house. I would get home from school, get my feet out of my school shoes, and replace shoes with roller skates. From then on, till it was time to go outdoors to play, I would move around the house on those wheels. Outdoors was not smooth sailing and I had it rough when I tried taking them out once in a while. So I settled for using them at home exclusively. I could carry a tray of coffee mugs as I skated, and I was pretty fast too!

And now, I found myself face to face with roller skates again. If I could find myself floating right there beside the sea, it was worth trying. Amid warnings that I may have lost touch and may find myself on the ground before I even started,  I decided to try them. The man helped me find the right size and as I put them on, my better half and my son were hoping they would not have to carry me back to the car later. I heaved myself up, took a step, and another, and soon I was rolling on the sidewalk. At first I took it slow, then as I got more confident, I just took off. Husband and kiddo could not keep up, but I was on cloud nine! The sea breeze in my hair and the waves playing their music, a beautiful beach spread out on one side and palms swaying to the breeze on the other! What more could I have asked for? I had never skated on a beachfront before, and it was BEAUTIFUL! 

After about 25 minutes, I realized I was holding up our plans to go on that drive, so I decided I had had enough. I headed back to the kiosk to return the skates. I asked the man how much I owed him. He looked at my face, totally content and happy, and sighed.
"Girl, you look like you had a great time, doing it after a long time?", he asked.
I nodded, and he continued, "you were out there for less than 30 minutes, and look at you, I ain't charging you a dime for that!"
I was so surprised! I have met such wonderful people in such unexpected places. I value those who put some emotions and experiences above money. He did not lose much, and I did not gain much from that monetary transaction, or the lack of it. However, that man will always be in my mind as one who worked with his heart in the right place. As for me, it was a PRICELESS experience worth remembering a lifetime.

Long time!

I have not been here in a long time. Not that I have not thought about it. I have, but there was no inclination. Time... I had lots of, but what do you do when your mind refuses to act? I am trying to get back to normal, in the sense I know the word. I have been quite successful at doing that... or have I? The New Year began without much fanfare this year. A month is almost over and days are slipping by quickly. Time flies....... it really does... Today's thoughts are really random. I am not even sure I will have this out for everyone to read.

A cold front rolled in last night, and the skies are overcast and the temperatures are dropping . There is something about cold and gray weather that does not bring out the best in most people.
I remember I used to love the way monsoon clouds would roll in with the breeze and drench us with a heavy shower and quickly disappear into oblivion. That was the time I used to love that gray look, it used to be short lived and always with a lot of breeze and a well kept promise of a soaking shower. The kind that lasts for about thirty minutes.
I remember a time when the clouds were rolling in from the sea, and the wind was picking up... I found myself humming a rain song and looking quite happy as I exclaimed aloud.. "I love this time just before the shower, it is pleasant, the breeze makes the heat very bearable and it is not yet time to worry about how you are going to stay dry in the rain!" That short lived perfect kind of situation! An acquaintance quipped... "What morbid taste!" To date I remember the disdainful look she gave me. I was so surprised at her reaction! I could not figure out the morbidity of the situation till I later discovered all day long gray skies with dreary persistent rain. I now see that she had a point. As for me,  that short lived situation that brings relief to the parched earth, I still love it.

I had a visit from a loved one that was kind of like that rain, short lived but bringing much relief. It was nothing special in the way things went, with some health issues and bad weather, but in an unexplainable sort of way, it was very special. I have now decided that I will be more frequent here. See you soon!